One of the most hurtful things I think I’ve ever had to deal with, is someone who I trusted with my life, deliberately betraying my trust…
Like so many others I found myself in a relationship with someone who would deliberately and intentionally do things to break my trust over and over again…
They would deny it at first, and then the truth would come out.
In fact, many uncovered truths about what they did still come out of the woodwork even to this very day.
They would knowingly break my trust time and time again but would show a sense of entitlement towards my trust, expecting to instantly regain it without showing any remorse for what they did, and without changing their behaviours or actions that led to my trust being so damaged in the first place.
They never wanted to discuss it, and when they did it was only to blame everyone and everything else…
I can honestly say that I had never experienced a more untrustworthy or deceitful person in my entire life.
The simple fact that someone could knowingly and so deliberately do things without a conscience knowing that it would hurt someone and damage their trust was completely incomprehensible to be.
It eventually led me to feeling so incredibly unsafe in my relationship, that I had to put some boundaries in place to protect my own well-being.
The moment I did, even that was used against me to further betray my trust…
I had never had my trust betrayed or damaged so much and so unremorsefully by any other person as much as they did.
It was one of the most hurtful things I’d ever experienced, and I hope to never have to it experience ever again.
When you’re on the receiving end of someone damaging your trust who knows exactly what they’re doing and are deliberate and intentional in their actions; you begin to question your value and your worth.
Because it makes you feel scared, which leads to having less confidence in yourself, which leads to low self-esteem, which leads to a lower sense of worth.
It’s damaging, and depending on the severity of it can be incredibly hard to overcome.
When you break someone’s trust, it’s on you to show that you can be trusted again.
It’s on you to take steps to repair the damage that your actions have caused.
It’s not up to the other person to have to relearn how to trust you.
You must show through your changed actions and behaviours that you can in fact be a safe space for someone again.
You are NOT entitled!
Trust is one of the hardest things to gain, yet it’s also one of the easiest to lose.
Your trust doesn’t deserve to be betrayed just because someone else can’t do the right thing.
Because someone who really values you will always do the right thing by you.
Because someone who really values you, would never even place themselves in a position to lose your trust to begin with…
~ Mark Smith