Your soul is black.
Your heart is stone cold.
You’re ugly inside.
But that’s not what I was told.
You called yourself pure, like the god you think you are.
I can’t believe I allowed you to just drag me down so far.
You convinced me I was worthless.
And you convinced me I was evil.
But all you did in the end was show me it was really you that was evil.
I’ll never understand why you did what you did.
Was I just a game for you, was nothing real; not even a bit?
My light was bright until your darkness buried my soul.
You left my heart bleeding with a gaping big hole.
You brought the storm clouds and chaos with you.
But my heart loved yours with a love so true.
You promised me peace and the love you said I deserved.
But I guess I came to realise that I must have misheard.
You took pieces of me I can never get back.
Your words and your lies were your greatest attack.
You destroyed parts of me that can never be put back together.
There’s just so many broken promises that my heart now has to weather.
Your lies and your false narratives became so disgusting and cruel.
Your abuse just negated, because you played me for a fool.
You made me feel so ugly by showing me how ugly you are.
Your heart was filled with darkness so black,
is that why you took the chance to stab me in the back?
I never thought I’d survive but you showed me how strong I could be.
And now that you’re gone, I can finally see.
The truth that no one else sees because you’re so good at what you do.
And I finally now know the person that is really you.
You can keep your hurtful words, and you can keep your neglect.
You can keep your selfish views and your ego intact.
You can keep your shallow world and you can keep your fake mask too.
Because what masked who you really were, it eventually fell off too.
And now that you’re gone, I’ve remembered how beautiful I am.
I’d forgotten all along with you telling me how horrible I am.
My light shines bright once more but I guess you won’t see.
It could have been us, but maybe I’m better off now that I’m free.
I wanted more than anything to grow old with you.
But you wouldn’t even give me a simple today or two.
You took me for granted but I guess that’s what you do.
History repeated, nothing here is new.
I believed what you said about the lessons you learnt,
but I see clearly now that you’ve still lessons to learn.
You behaviour is cruel, disgusting, and mean.
I can’t even comprehend how it’s something you couldn’t have seen.
Your promiscuity and the promiscuous person that you really are,
broke my heart into pieces and turned the pieces into scars.
And now we’re just two people living separate lives.
You’re just somebody that I knew once upon a time.
Wasted love, and wasted years.
My eyes forever stream rivers of tears.
But know that I’ll always love you, but I’ll do so from afar.
Just please, please don’t go breaking another person’s heart,
the way you destroyed mine and tore it apart…
~ Mark