I wish I knew then, what I know now…
That sacrificing all of the pieces of myself for someone who wanted my back but never had it, would end up with me losing myself.
That giving up everything I knew for someone who had no morals or values, would end up leaving me so broken.
That someone’s words about who they were would leave me looking for answers because their actions showed me a very different person.
I wish I knew then that someone’s ability to be able to manipulate instead of love, would leave me feeling so worthless.
That their presence would turn my world upside down, but their absence would leave me picking up all the broken pieces only to have to start again.
I wish they knew the pain that they caused, or the damage they left behind.
I wish they had shown that they cared, if only for a moment…
I wish I knew then, so much of what I know now…
Sometimes healing takes time because you don’t expect to have to heal from someone who you never thought you’d have to heal from.
Sometimes healing takes time because you don’t expect that someone who you trusted enough to give your life to, would completely tear it apart.
Sometimes healing takes time because you don’t expect that someone who you loved would cause you so much pain, and then do nothing but watch you drown from the storm clouds they brought to your life.
I wish I knew then, what I know now; because never again will I sacrifice myself for someone and allow them to destroy my worth.
Never again will I lose myself because I now know beyond any doubt exactly who I am.
~ Mark Smith